Someone asked me tonight if it was possible to have the wrong emotions. I'm not sure. But there are definitely emotions I wish I didn't have. But just because I wish they were absent, does that mean they are wrong? I believe in thinking errors. Is that the same thing? What do you do to purge unwanted emotions? I talk a lot. A lot. To myself. A lot. I also walk - uphill very fast - and when something gets in my way.... Anyway - I walk. And sometimes I run if its really bad. Good behavior? Is that enough?
I came in tonight at 1:20am (not typical) and as I came around the corner, Orion was hanging in the black sky. I was breathless for a moment.
I came across a gorgeous quote by Rilke Rainer - "Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue, a wonderful living side by side can
grow, if they succeed in loving the distance between them which makes
it possible for each to see the other whole against the sky."
Why is it that when we realize something is supposed to be hard or wrong or difficult or scary - all of a sudden we can handle it? Those secondary emotions.
The week upcoming is a doosie.
How do you spell doosie? doozy? dousie? doohzee? duzy?
But wow that quote - acceptance. Maybe that's it. acceptance.
Here's what I want to do this week - accept things, see things as they really are, feel no resentment or place blame.
